mein Schatz <3

Introducing the new debutante in town, Schatz.

She is not exactly a debutante yet. She is my baby girl...~

Schatz is German for darling/precious/sweetheart. No brainer why i choose that name for my baby girl.

Ich vermisse dich

My baby has left the country for work... His family and i sent him off at the airport. I promised him not to cry in front of him and I did, proud of myself!! His mother and I watched him walk into the departure hall from one level above. The moment he turned his back from us, tears rolled down my cheeks. I hate sending people off at the airport!!!

After that, his parents and i broke our fast together at the highway R&R. His brothers decided to eat in Subang instead and didnt join us. I was completely at ease with his parents. For me, I react according to people's mood and response. The mother was chirpy bubbly, so it was easy for me to be chirpy bubbly too. If she were to be quiet and keeping feelings to herself, i would be the same too, playing along with her mood. On the way back before dropping me off at my apartment, the mother told me to visit her during Raya and also from time to time. The father asked if i have his number, so that whenever i have problems with my car i can always call him. I salam-ed with them and his father gave me a slight pat on the head, just like what Bumblebee would sometimes do to me. I can imagine it right now. He would give me a gentle gaze, pat my head and then smile, and i would return him the smile happily like a little girl who gets a candy floss.

His family is sooooo nice to me. His younger sister said if i needed a ride to my sister's house, she could send me to Shah Alam. His younger brother said if i needed anyone to pick up my new car when I am away in China, they could always do it for me. Even when Bumblebee is not here physically, i know i am in good hands. I wonder what Bumblebee told his family... He must have told them to take care of me when he's away.

Bumblebee just arrived his work station today. It took him 2 days to fly from KL to the place! All the transit and connecting flight and whatnot. That poor boy... tapi sempat lagi dia beli game PSP kat Dubai!!  I googled the place and... let's just say even Kangar is a much better town than where he is right now. I assured him that everything will be alright. It's just the transition that is hard. Like what BigSis told me, we cannot be too sentimental or else we cannot move on in life.

I want to write about our unforgettable date on the 31st Aug, but shall leave it for the next entry.

Look what i received in the mail today!

BigSis sending some from the USA~

Selamat Hari Raya everyone and remember to drive safely!

Last night

Last night was my first experience.

I was nervous at first, but Bumblebee assured me everything will be fine, it is not as daunting as it seems. I believed him and took it slow at my own pace. It went GREAT and the whole thing lasted me for 6 hours straight! I really did enjoy myself and wouldnt mind doing it again.

That is the story of How I Met His Parents (H.I.M.H.P).

Frankly speaking, I was very very nervous. I've met an ex-bf's parents before, they were in Beijing for a holiday and i thought i should meet up with them out of courtesy. Last night was different. I really want to leave a good impression, especially towards his mother (coz that's how a girl bonds with her future MIL ). My sisters told me to just be myself, my girl friend told me not to wear too much make up, my bf wanted to bring me to his house after Pasar Ramadhan, to which i adamantly rejected becoz... my hair bau ikan bakar kottttt...!!

At 7pm sharp, i was already patiently and nervously waiting for him to come pick me up. We arrived his place just in time for berbuka. The moment i stepped in i nearly gasped. There was so much food!! It felt like there was a feast going on. I was glad his 2 cousins joined in as well. More young people in the house, merrier and attention wasn't solely on me. His mother insisted that i eat more. Knowing me, i was shy, i took only half potion of what i usually eat. One whole day of fasting and yet i was not hungry. Imagine that!

His parents were exceptionally nice and courteous. We ate and laughed and bahan orang and then continued eating hehe.. Helped the mother with the dishes after that (standard la tuh) and we had some sort of a private talk.  

After dinner we played Monopoly (Malaysian edition). That was fun! When Bumblebee and I were at Toys"R"Us, he was undecisive whether to get the Malaysian edition Monopoly or the one with the credit card (cashless Monopoly). I suggested the former, "Boleh jadi modal bahan orang" was my reason. True enough. When his brother bought a property at Jalan Masjid India, the cousins teased him saying "Bolehlah tempah baju raya free kat sana hahahahahaha". When my boyfriend bought over a property at Gurney Drive they said "Nak pegi Penang jumpa Hylda ke??" and things like that. The best was, when negotiating with other players about swapping property, someone requested to have "immunity" (not having to pay any money) when he passes by the other person's properties.

They started playing from 8pm+ till 1am!! I stopped halfway and let his father took over, while i chatted with the mother, popping kuih raya into my mouth in between conversations. At one point the father said something to Bumblebee, and my bf asked if i wanted to change (i was slightly sweating in my baju kurung). I could wear his T-shirt he said. I declined and they continued playing. At 1am or so, the father whispered something again to his son and Bumblebee finally said he would bring me home.

His mother packed some food for me for sahur, we salam-ed and he drove me home.

Do you think the night ended there??

NOPE.

I went up to my place, changed into T-shirt and jeans and went down to meet him again. We went to Canai at SS15 and hung out with his good friends. I was really tired, plus I wasnt feeling well, but i wanted to spend more time with him as he is leaving for work very very soon (as i'm typing this, he has 16 hours left to be on Malaysian soil).

Random note. All the chicks at Canai are so damn hot la in their flawless make-up and luscious hair and killing bod. The guys? Hmm.. just so-so.

Anyway, we had a good time laughing over nothing with his friends. To be honest, their jokes are quite refreshing for me. I dont know how to explain it but Chinese humour and Malay humour are different. Probably just like British dry humour and American slapstick jokes i think. I kinda enjoy both.

My quarter pounder cheese burger is staring back at me right now, giving me signals like "Eat me eat me!". More stories shall continue tomorrow, but it will be a sad one coz the next time i'm updating this blog, Bumblebee would already be flying across the continent. T_T

Eat, Pray, Love (not in that order)

Remember the previous post? i was worried of this and that.

Well, im no longer in a dilemma. i have calmed down a lot, weighed the pros and cons, consulted immediate family members and the reality sank in. im glad to say finally i have a decision in my hand - to leave when the time comes. about the crazy workaholic boss, well i'll just leave it to God. i hope i can cope with the workload. i just have to prove something to myself. i also want to fulfill my late mother's dream. i want to earn more money. i want to be an expert in my field. i want to be extraordinary. my International Mobility Package (IMP) is not finalized yet, hence i do not know what i am entitled to, or for how long im gonna be working there. every input i get is from hearsay, but no one (read: HR) has made it official to me yet. huh.

Bumblebee is leaving the country for work very very soon. he will be gone for a long time. now you know why it has been such a difficult decision for me. we do not know when shall we meet again. can our holidays be synchronized? can we overcome the challenges? can we still meet again as bf and gf? again, i'll just leave it to God.

i am supposed to join the team for our monthly China work trip this Sunday. Boss told me to be on standby from one week ago. Tickets are already booked, but not for me. I guess i do not have to join them this time and you know what, I AM GLAD. It's like a sign from above to let me spend more time with Bumblebee.

We watched Step Up 3 3D today with his siblings. The show is great!!! Love the dance moves, especially those from Moose and the robot man. Awesome! Double thumbs up!! As i am typing this, in the background is the downloading of the OST. hehe.. talk about being fast! When we got out of the cinema, he imitated the robot moves. eeeeeee...!! his sister and i terus buat-buat tak kenal that weirdo. 

I'll be breaking fast together with his family today, and boy am i nervous! It's the meet-the-parents moment. Since Friday is a public holiday for Selangor, I went to PKNS Shah Alam in search of a nice traditional baju. It's just a simple dinner occasion, but i take this seriously because i want to be formally introduced to his family. I have already met all of them in one way or another by chance. But this time, it will be done formally.  Please wish me luck. I've never been this serious in a relationship before. Call me hopeless romantic i dont care. This is the guy i am going to marry!!

Race against time

I am multi-tasking at the office now : keeping a straight face, trying to stay awake and combat hunger and reading some journals at the same time.

2.5 more hours to go before my weekend officially starts, hurrah!

Mind is still crowded though, but not as bad as yesterday, because all i need is time to help calm me down the emotional turbulence.

These few days rasa hati tak tenang, tak tenteram. I feel like i dont have enough time. Not enough time for myself, not enough time to complete office work at home, not enough time to be with family and relatives, not enough time to be with Bumblebee. Where have all my time gone to??? This is what happens when this plan and that plan clash with one another.

On the personal front, i really want to turn over a new leaf and become a better person, but every day i come home from work i'll be dead tired to do anything else. Oh well, after this week, im reporting back to Subang office, so things will get better soon.

Every time i take the overhead bridge from Wisma Sime Darby (in KL) to the opposite LRT station, i would see long queues of cars. Scary!